Looking back on my fitness goals, I have missed this first round. Meaning I wanted to be at a certain weight by this time. Yet, it wasn't a complete loss, so to speak. I have in fact, lost weight. I am way past the thirty pound loss mark. If you look at pictures of me from one year ago, you can see it. So I can't be too disappointed in myself. I am by no means giving up either. I haven't really had any changes in a few months. I haven't lost but more importantly I haven't gained. I look at myself in the mirror and feel a lot better about myself. I actually bought myself a bikini. I dreaded putting it on but when I finally tried it, I was surprised that I didn't look like a total porker. Yes, I need some tightening up, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I have been out sun tanning in the back yard, not a lot, I am too fair skinned to ever get very dark, but I just want a little bit of a sun "glow". Before anyone asks, NO I will NOT be posting pictures of me in this bikini any time soon. If I get down to where I want to be, you might see it, but for now it isn't happening. I am sporting my summer clothes with confidence. I haven't worn shorts out in public in a very long time. I can now go to the store wearing shorts and flip flops and not feel like a total idiot. It feels really good to have more confidence in myself. I don't think I am drop dead gorgeous, or model caliber, I feel like a good average woman and I love it. I love running into people I haven't seen in a while, every time they mention that I have thinned down. It is nice that people have taken notice. Thanks to everyone for the encouragement and help you have given me. It has helped me a LOT! Now for my next goal. I want to finish this weight loss, AND not this year but next be able to run the St. George Marathon. I am not saying that I will do it, but I want to be able to if I want to.
