Another shot of shame

So, in my effort to motivate myself into a healthier me I have decided to humiliate myself even further. I am now going to give you my measurements for waist, arms and thighs. Now this sucks but I am going to do it anyway cause I know this will cause even further drive in myself. My measurements are:

Waist - 46 inches (I know! I had to measure it twice!)

Thigh- 24 inches

Arm (upper arm) - 14 inches.

I have to admit I am actually enjoying my healthier lifestyle. It can be hard sometimes but I stick to it for the most part. heh. The exercise is fun. I LOVE hip hop abs, even tho I tried to do the intense workout and 20 minutes into it I was on the ground panting! lol. So I will stick with the other cardio and ab sculpting until I have better stamina and then I will get back into the intense one. Colton tries to do it with me and Chloe attempts to do it. So its fun. Dylan just tells me I look wierd doing it. Tova and I still go for a few brisk walks in the evening. Averaging approximately 2 miles a day. Being that he is a samoyed, a sled dog by nature, he forces me to walk faster than normal. Which I am happy for. I did modify my routine tho. I decided that I don't HAVE to workout daily. I only HAVE to workout for 30 minutes 5 times a week. I can do more if I feel like it, but that is my minimum. That makes it more livable. I will also allow myself a "treat" day once a week that I will allow 300 more calories one day a week in addition to my regular 1300 calories. So bear with me, as I make my modifications to my diet. Thank goodness for crystal light and special k. (their shakes aren't too bad!)

Sleep Deprivation

This has been the longest day of my life. I went down to St. George and decided that since I am such a sound sleeper that I had better stay up all night rather than try to wake up so early. I got Colton up at 130 am and kept him busy until it was time to leave. We went to the new hospital and got all checked in. Colton screamed the whole time, he was so tired! I tried to get him calmed down and rocked him gently until about 730 when he finally drifted off to dreamland. I laid him on the bed and the lady who was administering the eeg very gently started puting the nodes on him. Well, he doesn't sleep like his mom, and his eyes popped open and he was having none of this. After an hour of trying to get one done, we decided that we would have to do a sedated one next week...UGH!!! But at least I can sleep the night before lol. So I get him in the van and drive over to the old hospital for his mri. We get in, and I get him changed. It is barely 830 am. They give him a sedative to calm him down and then I take him to the radiology dept. at 930. The nurse came out of the room and picked him up, and instructed me to go to the waiting room until they came and got me. Now, I know it shouldn't bother me, but it did. The nurse was nice and all but she just non chalantly picked him up and waved me off. I still don't understand why they wouldn't let me stay with him until he was sedated. All I could think about was how scared he probably was, and didn't know what was happening with these strangers and where is mommy? Kinda irks me, but not much I can do now.

I went and got a bite to eat at the cafeteria, since I refused to eat in front of my baby that couldn't eat anything that morning. So I was pretty hungry. I went back to the waiting room, ate my bagel and waited. They finally let me back to him after an hour and a half. He was so mad, lol, don't blame him. I looked warily at the nurse and asked, "when can we leave?" she said, "let me see what I can do to get you out of here fast" and boy did she. She came in and removed the IV, I got him changed and we left within ten minutes. I went and saw my Mom at work to let her know we were done and then went to my folks' house to nap. All I know is taht I got to the house, put Colton down for a nap and then laid down on the couch. I finally got up about 230 or 3 when my mom got home and she brought me sandwiches from Tom's Deli! YAY! I hung out trying to shake the grogginess and came home. Now here I am drowsy, but alive and glad today is over. I am anxious tho to get this all over with. I still have at least one more week of dread for the eeg and hiding phenobarbital in his bottle.

Oh and on a side note, Tom (who stayed home to take care of the other munchkins) let me know of Chloes favorite sandwich. She made herself a peanut butter and dill pickle sandwich..........and she ate it!!! YUCKY!!!!!!!!!!

RIP MJ!

As we all know, Michael Jackson passed away a couple of weeks ago. That to me, is so sad. I am a true blue fan from a very young age. Just ask my mom! I had a glove and posters and my mom somewhere has my "thriller" jacket that I was sure was the one he wore. lol. I don't believe he was a pedophile, just a tragic soul, who is FINALLY getting some peace. I watched his memorial yesterday and it was soooo sweet. I did finally shed a couple of tears when his daughter got up and said she loved him and that he was the best. That poor kid! ugh. He is among the best entertainers that ever lived in my book. That all being said, can we PLEASE move on? The news just won't let it go. We have soldiers overseas dying a lot more heroically and tragically than MJ. I hope that now that he has had his memorial, life can get back to normal and we can start hearing more about the real news of the world.

As far as my health goes, I have lost two pounds last week. YAY!!! And my hip hop abs came in the mail today. So I can't wait to get started on that. I am trying to prove to myself that I can do it without shelling out a butt load of money on programs.

Tomorrow is the day for Colton's MRI and EEG. I am going to go down to my folks' house and stay the night. I have to get him up early...like three am, cause his eeg is at 7 am and he has to be sleep deprived. (I looked this up on the net, and it said that sleep deprivation can cause seizures, and they can get a clearer idea of what is going on!) This should be fun. He can't have anything solid to eat after midnight, only clear fluids cause after the eeg he will have an mri with sedation, and they don't want him puking. My kid loves to eat, and so he gets up in the morning and I can't give him anything? This is going to suck! lol. But he is getting his tests over with, and maybe he can be taken off of his meds. That would be so nice. My mom-in-law called me and was wondering when everything would be happening. She is so worried. She just had major back surgery and said that if she could she would be down there with us. I tried to reassure her that it was OK and the testing is not much to worry about. But she is a Grandma, and she loves him, she won't stop worrying until it is all over.