My Fat Hiney

Well I have had it, I am way too fat. I am going to now take the bull by the horns and get myself into shape. And I am going to do something that I know I am going to regret and tell the world how much I weigh...are you ready? As of today, Tuesday, June 30th 2009, I am 207 pounds. Holy Cow! Now, why am I doing this, cause I want you all, my loyal readers to hold me to my word. I went and found a website, http://www.caloriecount.about.com/ and entered in my info. According to that website, which I have chosen to abide by, my goal is to weigh no more than 141 pounds by May of 2010. I have to enter in there daily what I have eaten, it counts my calories, and the amount of exercise I do, and it will give me a good idea where I stand. I am so committed to this.

I am NOT dieting per se, I am just going to make better choices in my overall intake. I don't think actual diets work too well. I will not deny my cravings, I just have a limit to the amount of calories I can eat daily. So I have to be careful about how I use those calories. I am on a mission. Especially since I have announced to the whole world what I am doing, my goals and my weight (ugh). I found it interesting that for my height I am only considered slightly to moderately overweight, yeah right! The other thing is that I am not trying to become the skinny mini I was 10 years ago. That to me is not healthy or even slightly cute. I just want to be better toned and feel good about myself in a swimsuit. I want people to look at me and say...."wow! she has had three kids?"

As far as the exercise goes. I am going to work my way up to an hour of exercise a day. I want to do a basic cardio workout in the am and then weather permitting go for a half an hour walk in the evening with my dog. He will love that. I have heard that the workout hip hop abs is quite a good workout for what I am trying to obtain. But VERY expensive. So I looked on ebay and was able to buy the workout for a total of $8.50. Normally that workout is a LOT of money so I was excited to be able to get it for this amount.

Another aspect of this is that it will help me deal with my depression and anxiety a lot easier. I so want to be happy. I would also love to be able to run a marathon. Don't know that I actually would do that but I would like to be able to if I wanted to. So there it is. I am going to go take a couple pics of myself today for the "before" and "after" pictures that I can post at the end of this. So please hold me to the fire and force me to to be a healthier person k?

neurologist

I took Colton to the Neurologist yesterday. (Wed. June 10). The day started out kinda hectic. I had made arrangements for Dylan and Chloe to go to their Grandma Parry's house. The letter I had gotten from the Clinic was very specific about Not bringing other children to the appointment. I got a call that morning from my father-in-law asking me if I could bring them to their doctors office cause mom-in-law wasn't feeling well. I said let me see if I can make other arrangements and Drex agreed that that would be best. I called my Sis-in-law, the OTHER Jamie Parry( how funny is it that brothers both married a Jamie hahaha, makes for some interesting moments.) Anyway, she was busy but was trying to figure out a way for her and Drex to meet up and this and that. I said, let me see if I can find someone else. So, I called, my Dad. He of course, said "sure!" and we were off. I went to the store, got a prescription and some lunch for the kiddos to eat with Grandpa. I dropped the kids off, and headed to the docs appointment. I got there and the door was locked, um, ok. They told me more than once to get there at least 20 minutes early, to fill out paperwork. I was on time. And they aren't open? A few minutes later they let me and another mom and kid in. I filled out the proper paperwork and sat down with the other mom. Colton and the little boy, Jared, played together. His Mom told me that he was significantly small for his age. He was the same age as Colton and looked to be half his size. It was so funny. Colton just dwarfed the poor kid. I heard when they weighed him, he wasn't even 20 pounds. Now, I know Colt is big for his age but, it was like looking at the two extremes. Colt looked like he could eat the kid for a snack! Well we go in and I meet Dr. Fran *his real name is Dr. Filleoux...or something like that. An older guy and very friendly. He talks to me and then get an in depth history of my family health and it was like and interrogation lol. He got Colton down to his diaper and did a pretty in depth exam. We talked some more and then he stated that he didn't really like the idea of keeping him medicated for an extended period of time. Which, I can agree with. He said that he wanted to do and MRI and an EEG and if that came back clear, that we would slowly wean him off of the Phenobarbital. SWEET. He said, that while my familial history is a little concerning, he didn't think we needed to box him into "epileptic". If he does happen to have another seizure, Then we can be for sure, but he said he wasn't completely positive that this will happen again. I tend to agree with him. I am hoping that it was just a fluke.

Now I realize that I have been dedicating this blog to my youngest. I need to stop it. So now, for news on my other beauties. Since she is such a princess and always has to be first, I will start with my Chloe... She is doing quite well, and finshed up preschool she is so excited to start Kindergarten and go to the big kid school like her brother and ride the bus. I have to admit with pride that she is very smart. Also, quite a smartass. Sorry, but I had to say it. She loves to sing....LOUD....and Tom and I just can't help but smile when she 'embellishes' her songs. She is such a girly girl, and I love it. I love being able to dress her up and play with her hair. Tho she hates it when I do it, she says I hurt too much.

Then there is Dylan... He is just glad to be out of school for the summer. He doesn't share the enthusiasm for school that Chloe does. He is getting better at reading. I used to get so worried about him but I have realized that he is doing remarkably well. OK I admit, I still worry about him. But that is what moms do right? I love watching him. I could do it all day. He has such an imagination. And, he so super sensitive. I am not so much. It is sometimes hard to understand him. I am trying but I also want to toughen him up a bit cause, he tends to breakdown a lot at school even. I just want him to be happy. I have realized that I am just overanalyzing him and overprotecting him. He is so good at science and math. And has an amazing heart and the cutest little freckles!

And finally we have Whitni. She is now 15 almost 16. Wow. Her dad and I began dating when she was only 3 and a half. Ugh. She can't wait to get her license. She is an honor student, involved in choir and her church. Her one down fall is that she goes to ....Dixie High.....UGH..... Oh well. She can't help it...;) Sometimes when I attend her functions at her school, I get very nostalgic for my high school days. I can't believe it has been fourteen years since I graduated high school. Wow. I know that isn't much, but it feels like maybe it has been two or three years. And college yikes! Anyway, back to Whitni. I consider myself eternally blessed that I have her for a step-daughter. I think of how she could be making life here a living hell, and she doesn't. She treats me and my family with respect and love and they all love her too. I love her as much as I do my own and would easily lay my life down for her. She is a good kid. Well enough of the sappy stuff. I am sitting here wondering if anyone actually reads this stuff. Oh well even if they don't I have a place for me to write down my happenings and thoughts. That's cool.

Hello

Well I have been informed by friends that I am not very good at this. OK. I am trying. So here is my updates.

Colton is doing quite well. No new seizures. He is on Phenobarbital, and he must take what amounts to almost 4 1/2 teaspoons a day. I had the hardest time getting him to take the stuff. Finally I called the Doc, and they gave me the OK to hide it in his Silk and Juice. Yes, I said, silk, he is allergic to milk. That makes it a lot easier. But now the poor kid is on zithromax, because he has still got an ear infection and bronchitis. This poor kid just can't catch a break. The PA said something about maybe asthma. What next? Seriously. But, it isn't anything that cannot be taken care of, so I am grateful from that standpoint. I will take him to the pediatric neurologist next week. Luckily, the neurologist from Primary Childrens Hospital makes a trip to St. George once a month. I may still have to occasionally make a trip up to Salt Lake City, but mostly go to St. George. YAY!! I am just so grateful that he is OK, and that we can handle his issues.

Dylan asked me to explain epilepsy to him. I thought and figured out a way to make a seven year old understand. I said that in our brains we have little things like stars (neurons) that talk to each other(electrical currents thru the right and left side of the brain). In people with epilepsy, sometimes those stars will say too much or too little or get mad at each other. That is when people will have a seizure. I told him that "it is scary to watch someone have a seizure, but more than likely he will be ok. just make sure that a grown up is with him if you see him acting wierd." Then this is how the conversation went.

Dylan: Didn't Uncle Jeff have epilepsy?

Me: Yes he did

Dylan: Didn't he die from a seizure? (this kid is a lot more perceptive

than I thought!

Me: Yes he did....(Now I am starting to understand where this conversation

is going)

Dylan: (he is quiet tears welling up in his eyes)

Me: But honey, Colton isn't going to die. We will make sure that he takes

his medicine and that he is ok. Uncle Jeff probably wasn't taking care of

it the way he was supposed too. And guess what? Grandma Hamblin has

epilepsy, she takes her medicine, and she is alive and healthy!

Dylan: I know, but I just miss uncle Jeff (k where did that come from?)

Me: Well I do too, but Uncle Jeff is in a really wonderful place, he is up in

Heaven with God and Jesus and I bet he is really happy. And one day we

will see him, and I bet he will give you a big hug...

Dylan: (smiles thru tears) I know, he loved me didn't he

Me: Very much. He used to tickle you and play with you. Tell you what,

whenever you feel sad about Uncle Jeff, go sit in his chair, it was his

favorite and it will be like he is giving you a hug. And remember Uncle

Jeff wants us to be happy, so try and think of happy thoughts and smile.

He can see us, and it will make him happy.

At this point Dylan goes and sits in the chair and smiles. Then he quietly said, "I love you Uncle Jeff"....Now just so you all know, I am not moping around over uncle Jeff. I miss him tons, but I have moved on. I will always remember and love him, but I have gotten a grip on the fact that he died eighteen months ago. Speaking of which, there is finally a gravetone on his grave. It looks so awesome. so there you go, there is my update. Thanks for reading!!!!